Forever Feels Like Forever
Marking off the days
Like on a prison wall
This isn't what I expected
It to be at all
I'm counting on the end
But trying not to rush the years away
Because children too quickly grow old
And I wish they could just stay
They're the best part of me
And the better part of you
And I only care to live
Because they love me.
I just wish I knew before I bargained my forever
How cruel it would be to give my kids you as a father
No one tells you how long forever is
No one tells you how many ways you can be punished.
Just for not knowing better.
I wish I'd known better.
Forever feels like forever.
I'm not allowed to exist as myself
Only in the confines of your needing
I'm just trying to survive
Plug the holes and stop the bleeding.
Marking off the days
As each day's cord is severed
I wish I'd known before
Forever feels like forever.
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