Loop
I am stuck
In this mud
And I can't move my feet
On and on
Trauma bond
Living life on repeat.
I keep trying to pull myself off this track
No matter how far I run away
My brain keeps pulling me back
To the same place.
I think I'm blocking it out
I don't even recognize the signs
Until the fog disappears
And that's when I realize
I went around the loop again
Reliving the same place,
the same feeling,
the same memories
but I don't remember Them
Always wearing a different face
the same feeling
the same pain
going around the loop again.
All these words
All these hurts
Swimming around in my head
You deny
And you lie
But the truth will be said.
Quicksand, black hole, tornado
Sucking me in to the chaos.
deceit, gaslighting, denial
How do I calculate the loss?
I went around the loop again
Reliving the same place,
the same feeling,
the same memories
but I don't remember Them
Always wearing a different face
the same feeling
the same pain
going around the loop again.
I don't remember the details
I just know I feel alone.
I'm an adult being treated like a child
Who has no will of her own.
And that takes me back...
I am stuck
In this mud
And I can't move my feet
Frozen still
Have no will
Living life on repeat.
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